Fine as it seemed. Little by little changes hits in. I have lost myself. Why get impacted so hard? Why affected by it so much? To the point I cannot answer them. To go back the way it was, I can't find the way. Desire for sleep, to go into a place where I don't have to think about it. Waking up was a torture. Because I know, the you in the past who liked me, was not strong. Thus it can diffuse without warning and its not hurtful. My like, was far too much. Too much that it affects myself to the point, I have lost myself. Everything seemed unfamiliar. Seemed distant. You said love doesn't have to be in possess of something. But what do you know. You had your memories with your ex. You shared the wonderful times you had with her. I could only listen. And suppress on my feelings. I, do not have that kind of experience. This regret, tainted my heart. It went cold. Unable to beat like how it used to.

Regrets after regrets. Should have lied. Should have suppressed. Should have acted stupid. Should have acted as if nothing was going on.